self-diagnosis

I've decided that I'm not "just" a depessive, but that I am bi-polar. The thing is, the manics are mild and harmless. I get a little hyper and scatter-brained, but at the same time I can pick up all the pieces I let fall when I'm depressed. I've talked to my DH about this, and he doesn't see any difference in my behaviour. I don't do any of the destructive, megalomaniacal behaviours, no shopping sprees or anger jags, no staying awake for days.
And it feels so good to feel so good!

Just wanted to start a new thread.

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~~~~Becky

~ ~ ~ "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
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You could be a Bi-Polar who's high is just a normal state. I'm Bi-Polar and have to take meds to be normal. But I have heard of cases where people with Bi-Polar have a high that's range in a normal state compared to healthy people.
I suggest getting a second opinion by a professional mental health dr. They are more experienced and qaulified in determining such cases.

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Your friend,
TheJackRabbit
A.K.A. Christopher

Christopher, I'm pretty sure I'm one of the lucky ones. My baseline is much lower than "normal" (whatever THAT is) even though I'm on meds. It's not horrible, but I'm not a real gangbuster. So these highs are so nice!
I've been working with my GP and a shrink for eons, too. No problems!

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~~~~Becky

~ ~ ~ "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
~ ~ ~ Anais Ain

Becky, i have major unipolar depressive disorder.......... down, way down, and so far down everything looks like up to me

when i'm on an 'up' cycle, i can feel 'almost normal' and that's a huge statement

are you sure you think you are bi-polar? or could you be uni-polar?

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kate

My dx was something like "major depressive." Sometime in the last 20 years, did they change it to uni-polar? I most definately get depressed. Oh, God save me from another one. The last episode went from June of '05 to around January of '06. That was triggered situationally by a whole bunch of family and friends dying in the previous year, then having my son's dad drop dead at 49. God, I'm still weak and in recovery from that one. And yes, I was under treatment.

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~~~~Becky

~ ~ ~ "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
~ ~ ~ Anais Ain

i think the uni-polar was added because they were having so much trouble getting the depression under control, and they had tried almost all of the meds

i'm doing ok on Wellbutrin and Dexedrine in the morning
and then a couple of meds to deal with the anxiety and nightmares at night

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kate

Dexies? Holy Smoke. I used to take those as an illicit drug back in my teens. Ancient history!
I take Wellbutrin SR, 150 morning and night, and a really small dosage of Celexa. I don't want to say the Celexa is for anger management, but I guess that's it. I get very, very frustrated and impatient, yell a lot at other cars, use bad language, etc.
Wow, nightmares. I'm very lucky that's never been a problem for me. My husband gets them when he's super duper stressed. Is any of that related to PSTD?

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~~~~Becky

~ ~ ~ "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
~ ~ ~ Anais Ain

the psych says that my symptoms are more of someone with PTSD, yes

the dexedrine is so i can stay awake during the day, and not sleep all day long

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kate

Honestly, I wish I had had some last year when I was hit with my triple whammy of mono, hep C, and diabetes-2.
It's gonna take me another whole year to clean up all the crap that was just left undone because I was so exhausted all the time. Hence my happiness of this little hyper episode.

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~~~~Becky

~ ~ ~ "And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom."
~ ~ ~ Anais Ain